Fragile

Feb. 1, 2011, I had my 2nd CD4 extraction at san lazaro hospital. I've been waiting for my results for more than 3weeks, I am very anxious. Monday I got a text from nurse cellene asking me if I have a philhealth already, I said yes, and asked her if my results is already there, I already knew that I was going to be on meds, but I remained hopeful, the following day she texted me that my results is already there, I immediately texted my doctor to follow up, wednesday I went to PGH together with my bestfriend, I a little bit nervous of what how my results will turned out, we arrived around 1:30pm, there were many people as expected, I saw some old faces, few I know from yoga for life. The usual thing, you first knock on the door of SAGIP and ask for your doctor, then you wait outside...

We waited for 3hours...

and my doctor called me... We entered the room, after a few "hello's and hi's" and then my results...

My CD4 as of August 3, 2010 is 443

and my current CD4 as of February 1, 2011 is...

...

297

My CD4 dropped 146, I was a bit shock but wasn't surprise, I am accepting it wholeheartedly. I've been under a lot of stress lately and I didn't took care of myself properly so I have no one to blame but myself. My body is now fragile, it may break anytime, it needs to be under repair. I realized that my body is having a hard time fighting anymore, I have cough or colds that last for a week or two, diarrhea for a week, having dermatitis on my face, vomiting from time to time. Everything becomes different now, I promised myself to be more careful this time, I have to take care of my body well, I am advised my doctor to start my medication, after fixing my philhealth and finishing some lab test I'm now ready to start, this is another chapter of my HIV journey... I need to get those numbers up again! I know GOD is with me in this journey. 

Let's see what happens next. =)