I’m young and reactive with HIV-1.
I’m still at the state of accepting my condition though sometimes denying it and hoping that my result is negative. There were instances that I thought of ending my life, but I knew for a fact that this won’t solve anything. I realized I have to hold on because I have to be strong for myself, my family and for my boy friend for 8 months now. I'm just worrying so much for him and wishing that he would be negative. I am praying that in these coming months he comes out negative. I'd rather have him negative than go through what I am experiencing right now.
Every day I pray for forgiveness, strength, and guidance. I need to straighten my act. No matter how bad things are for me, I needed to live and life must go on. Through this I want to enjoy life more and see what is more important with the limited time that I have. Things happen for a reason and I believe in God. If this is what He wants for me then I would accept it. As of now, I’m not ready to tell anybody else yet. I don’t want to add another burden to my family. They had enough heart breaks last year so let’s give them more time.
For others like me, let us not be ignorant, learn the disease, manage the disease and conquer it. Always think that it’s not the end, treatments will help us live. We still deserve a second chance because for us, this will be our second chance to life. We’ve already been wounded but it’s up to us to prevent that wound from getting worst. Things will get better.
Be strong, be tough and beat the bitch!!
I think I will be OK and so will you... Good luck to us!
and remember... just breath... you’ll be OK.