A Hug

I woke up today thinking that this day is just like an ordinary day, I immediately took a bathe and prepare myself for work, I usually kiss my mom on the forehead before leaving the house but as I was walking out the door.

Mom: aalis ka na? (are you leaving?)

Me: opo baka ma-late ako sa office (yes, I might be late for work)

Mom: lika muna dito (come here first)

I was thinking she will just ask me to do some errands and stuffs, as I got closer she gave me a very tight hug. I was speechless and teary eyed... As you can see my relationship with my mom got weakened after I told her my HIV status, she was so mad at me that she said some very hurtful things to me before and our conversations regarding my health always leads to a fight. As I remember the last time she hugged me was on my 23rd birthday, I am already 24, turning 25 this year. That hug means a lot to me, it pushes to fight even more. I do love my mom very much and I had forgiven her already. I am just praying that one day things will be back to normal with us.

Remembering 2012

2013 is almost here, but let me share you my top 5 unforgettable experience this 2012.

5. Losing a friend - I've met him late December of 2010, instantly we clicked, we were constantly communicating through twitter, and just this year he passed away. He was such a good friend. I miss him...

4. Promotion - I have always been frustrated about my career, this promotion is truly a blessing.

3. Birthday - One of the most memorable birthday experience is celebrating with my twitter friend. I am happy that I was able to meet this wonderful people.

2. Cd4 - After being stuck to 300, my cd4 finally went up to 647, this one is really a surprise, because of my stressful work environment I didn't expect it to go up like this. I am very thankful.

1. Family and Boyfriend - My family doesn't talk about my relationship or even my orientation but I was surprised when they took the initiative to get to know my partner, we even had lunch the day my partner went abroad. Slowly they are starting to accept our relationship.

My partner went home on the day of our anniversary, even though he was just staying here for a short while, he never fails to make me happy. Its been 3months since he left and I miss him so badly.


Overall this year was great, I am very thankful to God for giving me a very understanding doctor, a stable job, a wonderful friends, a supportive family, and a loving boyfriend. Looking forward to a better 2013.

Happy New Year! :)

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What your Number?

It's been 7 months since I had my last check up, my doctor in PGH barely recognizes me. I was so busy with work that I cant find time for my follow up check up. Last month I turned 24 at the same time I had my cd4 extraction, I am very vocal that what I want for my birthday is having my cd4 reach 500, I always do pray about it. My cd4 is always in a fluctuating manner, it goes up but goes down again after the next extraction.

Here's the trend.

August 2010- 443

February 2011- 297

August 2011- 334

March 2012- 326

Frustrating right?! LOL!

So yesterday I had my follow up check up, the usual, my doctor check my heart, my lungs, my neck for lymph nodes, mouth for cank sores, eyes for what ever. hehehe... Thankfully she didn't saw anything wrong. For my cd4 results, she just stared at me and asked what my last cd4 count is, I was nervous, I asked her if it decreases, she was just silent and handed me over my results. I can't believe what I saw so I check if it really was mine, I checked the code number and it is mine. I was so happy! Finally my wish came true, my cd4 as of october 2012 was 647!!!! I prayed and thank GOD for all his blessings. :)

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Leaving on a Jet Plane

All his things are packed and he's ready to go...

In a few days he'll be leaving the country, I feel sad that he's leaving again, as much as I want him to stay longer he needs to work, I don't want to be selfish. I will miss you and the wonderful times we spend together. 3 months is so short but we made it worthwhile. Take care my baby... I love you!